Nostalgia And Sadness

It is strange how time flies by so quickly.
It sometimes feels like trying to hold water with your hand.

Just yesterday, my wife was showing me old photos and videos of our elder son (now 3 years). He was about 1 year old in the photos.

I felt this strange bitter nostalgic, sad feeling when i saw his photos. I just wanted time to go back for me to hold him close and try to cherish every moment with him.

Going into bed i realized that this is a feeling i always get when i am nostalgic.

Whenever i look at old photos of me or my family or even my deceased brother, i get overwhelmed by this sad nostalgic feeling.

I remember talking to one of my primary school friends whom i got in contact with after 18 years (thanks to Facebook), and we were discussing our old school days. We had this photo with all of us posing in our school uniforms.

I asked her what feeling did she have whenever she looked at that photo over the past 18 years. She answered: "I felt happy".
Strange thing is, my answer was:" I feel sad, i feel i want to go back to those days and be a child again.".

Thing is, the sweet sadness feeling is very intense whenever i remember the primary school days specifically.

I do not know if it is the Egyptian in me, with his love of history and nostalgia.
Or is it because in the past things seemed easier, and there was less to worry about.
Or becuase i was with my father, mother, brother and Grand-mother as a whole family.
Or maybe because my brother passed away back then in a car accident and that affected all of us back then very much.... i do not know....

All i know is, i miss anything that has to do with the past. It is a lovely, yet bitterly sad feeling.

Mood: Take a wild guess....